Final exam is just around the corner but I have to face the baddest scene of my life ever. I couldn't explained in words. It really turns my life upside-down. Today, I've to see doctor because my stomach is killing me. I loss my appetite since two days ago. Even today, I just took my breakfast. What was happened is out from my thinking. I still confused till today. The baddest thing is, mum is not around to give me a big hug that I really need now. Even though I can't share with her what's happening to me, as a mother, she will feels it by herself.
I'm not chanced to send her to airport yesterday. I only talked with her on phone. She said I shouldn't cry. She will always pray for me no matter where she is. I asked her to pray for me so Allah will always guides me. Give me an extra-strength which I really need it the most now. The most thing is, I asked her to pray so I can perform in my exam as well as before. Because what was happened to me this two days make me feel like dying. I don't know if I can perform well in exam.
20 years I live in this world, that was the first time I feel like dying. If Allah take my life that day, I will just released. Because I'm totally give up of living.
When I talked to mum on phone, she said: "Ainun, I will always remember you in my pray. Pray for me as well. Don't forget your salah, there's where you can get your strength. Ask anything to Allah. Inshaallah, He wills grant it for you. Ainun, don't cry dear. Mum is always here with you". Even though I never tell her what's happening to me, she can feels it, I know. Because mother's instinct is always true. Mum, I need your comfort hug to make me feel alright again. Yes, everyone is here but it doesn't same as your presence beside me.
8.46pm
23/3/2012
Friday, 23 March 2012
Sunday, 18 March 2012
He sent me this through Facebook:)
Here are 7 common mistakes women make with men, according to Armstrong:
Mistake #1: Seeing men as misbehaving women.
Women take everything personally, Armstrong says. When a man doesn’t do what we want, we think he doesn’t love us, care about us or respect us.
“Otherwise he wouldn’t be misbehaving.”
But men are more forgiving than women. “They allow for mystery with women and find it fascinating.”
Mistake #2: Reading into his words.
Take men literally. If he says he’s busy Saturday night, it means he’s busy Saturday night, Armstrong says.
“It doesn’t mean he’s tired of you, bored of you or wants to break up with you.”
Mistake #3: Expecting his time to be yours.
When he becomes your boyfriend, you expect him to sync up with your daily planner.
The problem?
“He doesn’t see it that way. Men have whole lives. They don’t consider they owe you all their time,” married or not, she says.
Men owe you their best effort to make you happy, and to love and respect you, Armstrong says. But expecting him to cater to you makes you appear “domineering, bitchy, disrespectful and disempowering.”
Mistake #4: Interrupting when he’s speaking.
You’ve asked your man an important question. He starts to answer and you butt in.
“That’s how women mistakenly end up thinking men are shallow,” Armstrong says.
When interrupted, a man will just stop talking.
Instead, listen to what he says. When he’s finished, listen some more. That’s when the best nuggets often emerge.
Mistake #5: Thinking a man can multitask.
Women are biologically designed to multitask, says Armstrong.
“We watch TV and knit a sweater; we drive and plan our day; we’re on the phone while checking email.”
Men don’t. Why? Because they’re hunters, Armstrong explains. They have to be single-focused to keep their eye on the target.
Mistake #6: Believing a man is ignoring you.
You’ve probably accused your guy of ignoring you while he’s driving or watching TV. He really isn’t. He just can’t do two things at once.
If he’s watching TV or dressing, “He’s just watching TV, just getting dressed,” Armstrong says. “We think he’s doing something and ignoring us because we can do that.”
No wonder most women feel abandoned!
“We keep our attention on [men], and we feel upset when their attention is not on us,” Armstrong says.
So next time your man’s ”hunter” kicks in – and you’re feeling disconnected – take a deep breath and remember: He’s wired differently; it’s not personal.
Mistake #7: Competing with a man’s mission.
“I’ve trained my daughters not to hit dad up about anything” until we’re on the freeway, Armstrong says. “It’s all about getting the mission on track.”
Same thing goes when a man is immersed in a new business venture and less available.
“All his energy is going into this thing that he’s sure is going to provide for his family,” Armstrong says.
Don’t fall into the trap of thinking he’d make more time for you if he cared more. It’s not about you. And forcing him to pay attention “will be excruciating for him,” Armstrong says.
But relationships are not a one-way street. Men need to understand women too.
In her coed workshop Understanding Women: Unlock the Mystery, Armstrong gives men the tools to change their interactions with women.
It’s healing for both sexes.
“Women sit in the course with tears running down their faces when they find out they’re not alone,” Armstrong says.
Women are “frog farmers”: They unwittingly turn princes – good guys – into “frogs” by trying to change them, says Armstrong, who has spent decades studying men and how women relate to them.
Her conclusion: You can’t change men, and once women accept their fundamental nature, their relationships can improve.
“We don’t need to disempower men; we have enough power of our own,” Armstrong says. “That’s what’s really cool. Men love strong, competent women. It’s the ‘What-do-I-need-you-for?’ attitude women often cop – that keeps men at a distance.”
*I'm just smiling throughout my reading. You know why? Because I found the truth from this note. Well, I just have to admit me as a girl, I always feel insecure and doubt in relationship. But without him who always bring me back to the right track, I don't know what will happen to our relationship now. Maybe we no longer together. That's why I always say that he is the best man in my life ever. Nobody could replaced him in me. No words from me can completely expressed my feelings of having him beside me:)
4.30pm
18/3/2012
Mistake #1: Seeing men as misbehaving women.
Women take everything personally, Armstrong says. When a man doesn’t do what we want, we think he doesn’t love us, care about us or respect us.
“Otherwise he wouldn’t be misbehaving.”
But men are more forgiving than women. “They allow for mystery with women and find it fascinating.”
Mistake #2: Reading into his words.
Take men literally. If he says he’s busy Saturday night, it means he’s busy Saturday night, Armstrong says.
“It doesn’t mean he’s tired of you, bored of you or wants to break up with you.”
Mistake #3: Expecting his time to be yours.
When he becomes your boyfriend, you expect him to sync up with your daily planner.
The problem?
“He doesn’t see it that way. Men have whole lives. They don’t consider they owe you all their time,” married or not, she says.
Men owe you their best effort to make you happy, and to love and respect you, Armstrong says. But expecting him to cater to you makes you appear “domineering, bitchy, disrespectful and disempowering.”
Mistake #4: Interrupting when he’s speaking.
You’ve asked your man an important question. He starts to answer and you butt in.
“That’s how women mistakenly end up thinking men are shallow,” Armstrong says.
When interrupted, a man will just stop talking.
Instead, listen to what he says. When he’s finished, listen some more. That’s when the best nuggets often emerge.
Mistake #5: Thinking a man can multitask.
Women are biologically designed to multitask, says Armstrong.
“We watch TV and knit a sweater; we drive and plan our day; we’re on the phone while checking email.”
Men don’t. Why? Because they’re hunters, Armstrong explains. They have to be single-focused to keep their eye on the target.
Mistake #6: Believing a man is ignoring you.
You’ve probably accused your guy of ignoring you while he’s driving or watching TV. He really isn’t. He just can’t do two things at once.
If he’s watching TV or dressing, “He’s just watching TV, just getting dressed,” Armstrong says. “We think he’s doing something and ignoring us because we can do that.”
No wonder most women feel abandoned!
“We keep our attention on [men], and we feel upset when their attention is not on us,” Armstrong says.
So next time your man’s ”hunter” kicks in – and you’re feeling disconnected – take a deep breath and remember: He’s wired differently; it’s not personal.
Mistake #7: Competing with a man’s mission.
“I’ve trained my daughters not to hit dad up about anything” until we’re on the freeway, Armstrong says. “It’s all about getting the mission on track.”
Same thing goes when a man is immersed in a new business venture and less available.
“All his energy is going into this thing that he’s sure is going to provide for his family,” Armstrong says.
Don’t fall into the trap of thinking he’d make more time for you if he cared more. It’s not about you. And forcing him to pay attention “will be excruciating for him,” Armstrong says.
But relationships are not a one-way street. Men need to understand women too.
In her coed workshop Understanding Women: Unlock the Mystery, Armstrong gives men the tools to change their interactions with women.
It’s healing for both sexes.
“Women sit in the course with tears running down their faces when they find out they’re not alone,” Armstrong says.
Women are “frog farmers”: They unwittingly turn princes – good guys – into “frogs” by trying to change them, says Armstrong, who has spent decades studying men and how women relate to them.
Her conclusion: You can’t change men, and once women accept their fundamental nature, their relationships can improve.
“We don’t need to disempower men; we have enough power of our own,” Armstrong says. “That’s what’s really cool. Men love strong, competent women. It’s the ‘What-do-I-need-you-for?’ attitude women often cop – that keeps men at a distance.”
*I'm just smiling throughout my reading. You know why? Because I found the truth from this note. Well, I just have to admit me as a girl, I always feel insecure and doubt in relationship. But without him who always bring me back to the right track, I don't know what will happen to our relationship now. Maybe we no longer together. That's why I always say that he is the best man in my life ever. Nobody could replaced him in me. No words from me can completely expressed my feelings of having him beside me:)
4.30pm
18/3/2012
Friday, 16 March 2012
Sunday, 11 March 2012
You mean the world to me.
I love when you treat me like a little girl. I don't want to grow up, so forever I will have you to remind me on everything. So forever you will pampered me. So forever you will always put your attention on me. So forever you will take care of me and so forever, you will stay with me. When you getting harsh on me, I feel like there's something is going on:( Because you always being soft to me:) I'm getting COMFY with your soft treat on me. I always want to be your little girl. A girl that always need your guidance to hold her hand while she crossing the road of her life.
Indeed, you teach me how to be a woman. I'm still not good at it. Give me some time to be a good woman for you. But honey, I feel comfortable of being a little girl. So each time I cry, there is you to wipe my tears. When I get angry, you are there to calm me down and when I give up in life, there is you to motivate me.
You give a life to me. You bought a lot of scarfs for me, so I wear scarf back. To cover my aurah. So only you can see it. You protect my pride as a WOMAN. That's why you so precious to me. I'm so lucky. You whispered to my ear that day 'Ainun, Allah will answer your pray one day'. From that day, I never feel give up to always pray to Allah. So one day, He will grant my prays.
From the bottom of my heart Rawlings, I'm looking at you as the most responsible man after my dad. You cherish me like I'm the only girl in this world. Please honey, never leave me. You are a gift to me. I need you in my life. Every second, every minute, and everyday. So Allah will bless our relationship with marriage. Do you want to marry this STUBBORN GIRL? HAHAHA
Honey, never feel give up with me. This little girl always want you to be with her. That is why. I pray so our love is eternity. We try our best for this relationship. The rest remain to Allah how He wants it to be. The only thing we can do is put some effort in it.
I'm just like a little girl who is angry when somebody else took her biscuits. You know what I mean? I don't like sharing thing that I love especially YOU. As LITTLE GIRL loves BISCUIT, I LOVE YOU.
11.10pm
3/11/2012
Indeed, you teach me how to be a woman. I'm still not good at it. Give me some time to be a good woman for you. But honey, I feel comfortable of being a little girl. So each time I cry, there is you to wipe my tears. When I get angry, you are there to calm me down and when I give up in life, there is you to motivate me.
You give a life to me. You bought a lot of scarfs for me, so I wear scarf back. To cover my aurah. So only you can see it. You protect my pride as a WOMAN. That's why you so precious to me. I'm so lucky. You whispered to my ear that day 'Ainun, Allah will answer your pray one day'. From that day, I never feel give up to always pray to Allah. So one day, He will grant my prays.
From the bottom of my heart Rawlings, I'm looking at you as the most responsible man after my dad. You cherish me like I'm the only girl in this world. Please honey, never leave me. You are a gift to me. I need you in my life. Every second, every minute, and everyday. So Allah will bless our relationship with marriage. Do you want to marry this STUBBORN GIRL? HAHAHA
Honey, never feel give up with me. This little girl always want you to be with her. That is why. I pray so our love is eternity. We try our best for this relationship. The rest remain to Allah how He wants it to be. The only thing we can do is put some effort in it.
I'm just like a little girl who is angry when somebody else took her biscuits. You know what I mean? I don't like sharing thing that I love especially YOU. As LITTLE GIRL loves BISCUIT, I LOVE YOU.
11.10pm
3/11/2012
Friday, 9 March 2012
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE!
It was on 7th March. Two days ago. Nothing much on his birthday. Just I hope we will celebrate it again next year, next two years or even twenty years from now. LOL. You know what I mean? I want to be with him till the end of my life and I meant it. There's no day I want to go through without him. I pray so he will achieve what he wants in his life. Want to be JUTAWAN huh? Inshaallah one day honey. You aimed BIG! That's why am admiring you. You dare to challenge yourself. ALWAYS STAY FOR WHO YOU ARE. THAT'S THE REASON WHY AM ADMIRING YOU THE MOST. Rawlings, more than thanking you, I want to thank your parent today for bringing you into this world. Lol
There was a day I cried, he whispered to my ear, Ainun, He will answer your prays one day. He instill his spirit in me. To always be positive. Even when am down with nothing.
Rawlings from my eyes:
R: RESPONSIBLE
A: ANGEL TO AINUN
W: WONDERFUL
L: LOVING
I: IMPASSIONED, INCOMPARABLE AND IRRESISTIBLE
N: NAUGHTY!
G: GIFT TO AINUN
S: SO SPECIAL IN THIS STUBBORN LITTLE GIRL::)
HAVE A NICE AND GREAT DAY AHEAD HONEY. I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL:)
3.16pm
9/3/2012
There was a day I cried, he whispered to my ear, Ainun, He will answer your prays one day. He instill his spirit in me. To always be positive. Even when am down with nothing.
Rawlings from my eyes:
R: RESPONSIBLE
A: ANGEL TO AINUN
W: WONDERFUL
L: LOVING
I: IMPASSIONED, INCOMPARABLE AND IRRESISTIBLE
N: NAUGHTY!
G: GIFT TO AINUN
S: SO SPECIAL IN THIS STUBBORN LITTLE GIRL::)
HAVE A NICE AND GREAT DAY AHEAD HONEY. I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL:)
3.16pm
9/3/2012
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